I Love You, But--Part 5 Wrap-Up
The phrase "I love you, but" has, honestly, historically been my way of thinking. Basically, in relationships, I got you. I will give you my last and fight the world back-to-back with you. But, the first time, I say I need you and you are not available--it's a wrap. If you are a no-show. I love you, but I love myself more.
Now, after years of experience and saying BUT, I realize one of two things may have been the cause of my always having a BUT card ready to use and slam on the table. As the writers in this series have stated, maybe the love wasn’t actual--possibly (most likely) on my part. The lack of reciprocity was reason enough to activate my BUT exit. In the past, understanding the lack of returned love was not my problem. I needed an escape route from unrequited love that ushered me right out of many doors.
Another possibility is the person that I loved BUT loved me, BUT in return. Either way, I am very thankful for all of the love, BUT that I have experienced. Seeing people fade from my life has taught me how to appreciate a different type of I love you, But.
I love you, BUT I won’t accept the bull you are giving, AND I hold you accountable for your actions. I love you, BUT you are better than this, AND I expect more from you. I have learned that both types of I love you, BUT deliver a deeper understanding of who I am and who I want to be.